Before I boast about me soaking up the goodness of salvation that I encountered on this day 5 years ago and about the cross of the Lord Jesus Christ, as I’m trying to say in this picture, here’s what went down:
MY SALVATION STORY
My knees became feeble and my legs trembled. “Why is he talking to me?” “Why do I feel this way in my heart?” “Why does it seem like elephants are running around in my stomach?” “Will everyone stare at me?” “Will everyone know what I have done?” “So I won’t be able to listen to just any kind of song I like anymore?” “I won’t be able to do just anything I want?”
All of these questions raced in my head as I sat in the pew that morning. It was a Youth Programme on the 3rd of February, 2012. The title of the sermon didn’t stick but its message was clear: I am young and it was the best time to accept Christ, to let him take over my life forever.
“Wait” I began to think, “I thought this God-thing was separate from my, you know, normal life. Christ taking over my life? What? No way. I church on Sunday. My family is Christian. I’m not a law breaker and I attend fellowship in school. Isn’t that enough taking over?”
I think the preacher could hear me. He said something like, “It’s about a personal walk and relationship with God.”
“Why did I come for this service?” I rolled my eyes. “What next would happen here?”
Then something switched and my eye twitched. There were tears nesting in my eyes and really, they were about to roll down every side of my cheeks. I couldn’t even tell why I wanted to cry. Then, the altar call was made. I remember clearly: I sat three seats from the last and the altar was quite far from where I was.
“Why am I even sitting at the back today? How would I make it all the way to the front with all these people around me?”
Like a remote-controlled automobile, I stood and kept moving. I had no idea I had gotten to the front till I bumped into someone in front of me. The altar area was full.
“Oh so it wasn’t only me?” I felt relieved.
Fast forward to May, 2013, I fell. I fell for the impulses of my flesh. There was a ‘him’ and I got into a relationship that wasn’t actually a relationship but one which I thought was a relationship. I thought everything was fine and I could resist all appearances of evil. I forgot the Bible said, “Flee!” No, I didn’t have sex with ‘him’, but I was foolish enough to believe we were made for each other forever, so I allowed certain ‘privileges.’
Fast forward to December, 2013, we had a little fight and he said, ‘I am not categorically your boyfriend. You never said yes, so to speak.’ Yes, I remember those words lol. I was angry. He was right but I’m like really? You had to say it? Now? In this manner?
I was broken. Spiritually and emotionally. I smiled in the open but my pillow was damp every night. I read Sassy, Single and Satisified by Michelle Mckinney Hammond and I learnt about God’s love in a new way. I prayed for an experience of that kind of love and I also realised it was never right to allow certain ‘privileges’. I told God I was sorry and I told God I needed to get back on my feet.
Fast forward to January, 2014, I went for a 2-hour Worship Programme and there, I met God in a new way. I had a re-connection with the Holy Spirit and bam! It was the beginning of a fresh love relationship. The relationship with ‘him’ definitely taught me never to allow so called ‘certain privileges’ in ‘future relationship(s); so if you’re a young woman or man and you’re reading this, do not jump ahead of God, tell those youthful lusts and exuberance to take a chill pill, tell those ungodly desires to perch in hell and stay there, no matter how ‘hot’ you think the ‘love’ or ‘desire to explore’ is.
Fast forward to February, 2017, life with God has been beautiful! Trust me, God loves His own and He would do anything to make life lovely for them. I am not claiming to be perfect, neither am I saying I do not err once in a while, for instance not really walking in love as I explained in this post but I am saying that with God, you can never miss it. It’s like you’re in a frame that keeps you from destroying your own life, as long as you keep praying, reading His Word, listening to and obeying godly counsel. I totally love my life as a Christian! *dance dance*
Today, I haven’t written this long post to entertain you or excite your mental capacities; I have done this to tell you that salvation is for you too. This morning, I have spent time worshipping and thanking God for that gift of salvation. Yes, salvation is a gift; you did not earn it (read Ephesians 2:1-10) but for a gift to become part of your possessions, it has to be accepted. If you haven’t accepted Christ as your personal Lord and Saviour, you’re missing out BIG TIME. If you would love to, you can do so by praying this prayer and get established in a true Bible-believing church:
You loved the world so much that You gave Your only begotten Son to die for our sins so that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life.
Your word says we are saved by grace through faith as a gift from You. There is nothing we can do to earn salvation.
I believe and confess with my mouth that Jesus Christ is Your Son, the Saviour of the world. I believe He died on the cross for me and bore all of my sins, paying the price for them.
I believe in my heart that You raised Jesus from the dead and that He is alive today.
I am a sinner and I am sorry for my sins and I ask You to forgive me. By faith I receive Jesus Christ now as my Lord and Saviour. I believe that I am saved and will spend eternity with You! Thank you, Father. I am so grateful in Jesus’ name, amen.
(from The Everyday Life Bible)
If you have accepted him prior to now, but you are finding it hard to maintain your walk with Him, calm down. It’s not so hard. If you have done something that you think is separating you from Him, remember first that “When God seems far, guess who moved? You!” Because God is the unchanging, I AM THAT I AM. Simply, ask for a fresh relationship with Him and ask the Holy Spirit to help you, just as I did (no matter what you have done). Seek godly help and counsel if it is something you cannot deal with all on your own. Do not keep silent. You see, the devil has a way of making us feel guilty for nothing, but that is only if you allow him. Speak with someone about that addiction, that detrimental thought that keeps popping in your head all the time, that struggle in your prayer life and any other thing, because we have been told in Scriptures to bear each other’s burdens. You can speak with me too (if you think you trust me enough *wink*). Email is firstname.lastname@example.org or email@example.com. You can also share your salvation story! I would love to read them and share them here too!
You should also know that all through this month of February, we would be sharing salvation stories on #fictionfridays. It would be written in a fiction format and I really hope you have been blessed by my story today. (Please drop comments)
Thank you so much for coming around and taking time out to read and share. I love you!
With Overflowing Love,